The Same Dress

Monday 21 August 2017

Intermezzo while writing for my research proposal

Here is dress that tailored around 2011 and i still have it in my closet

Last month in July 2017, when i had my oral test for CE. 



Commencing Macro midterm this year 2017, i think it was in March 2017. 
We have a study group almost every day in carrel room Library level 3. 
He snapped a picture just to release some of stress


This is in 2015, when i did a volunteer teacher in Rumah Belajar Damar. It is a free pre-school

I can only find three pictures...

The reason i wore it because it is a simple dress. Sometimes when i can't decide which cloth i should wear that day, i just pick this one

Moving On

7 August 2017


Today is been 7 years since my father pass away...

Moving on

Done for CE and while waiting for the result...let's do something else

Recall what we did after CE


This photo was taken after the writing test on 19 August 2017 on Wednesday around 12 in the afternoon

All those tiring face after 3 hour exam and 3 papers in a row with 15 minutes break


The above one was during the oral test on 27 July 2017...
It was start on 2 pm...
Since it was hard for me to focus and study thus we take a picture while waiting for our turn...
I was the last one because it was call according to matric number..

It was really a bless for me finally i can take my CE...Alhamdulilah...


Our Time

Tuesday, 25 July 2017

2 days prior CE - Oral Test  

This picture was taken at 1 Syawal in 2010 probably 2 months after my father passed away. He passed away on 7 August 2010

It was the first Eid we celebrate without him

That day was not a very festive moment, we have to adjust the new condition that Allah has planned for our family

The sorrow moment when my mother had to take a family picture and meeting with our relatives...

Everyone will die...

we just don't know when will our time will come

The hereafter is our goal...
Doing good deeds, sharing our knowledge and become a pious child are some of things that we should do to prepare our self before we die

Our Parents

Saturday, 1 July 2017

Reality check

First day of the month
7 Syawal 1438, have you do make up fasting?
And seems that the prices of good increased after Raya..in Indonesia.-_-

While watching health advertisement in TV, I notice most of daughters are more caring to their parents when they are old...

Somehow, when our parents are younger they give more attention to their son more than to their daughter in term of good education, financial funding since their son will be the breadwinner of the family...

But see what happens when the parents grow old, who take care them the most...daughter or son...

It is just my opinion...it is all up to you to agree or not...:)

Your Own Time Zone

Friday, June 23, 2017

2 days commencing Eid Fitri

Everyone has its own time zone
When you are 30s...Most of your friends are married, have kids, finish their Phd, settle down and ready to reach a bigger step
But see what happens with you now...

We can't compare our life with anyone of them

Biologically they have different energy, raised in different family, has different family background, experience different way of life and has different point of view

Maybe they have many pluses compare to us  but as a person they also have drawback

Maybe if we are living in their shoes , we cannot bear the consequences...

Allah is giving us according to our portion be grateful, quoted from Sheikh Mufti Menk

28 of Ramadan
The night of 29th


Same Environment

Sunday, 25 March 2017

End of March, commencing Macroeconomic midterm

First post in March

Quoted from Timur Kuran paper, "Muslim like to live in homogeneous community...."
Somehow his writing is correct...although the remaining sentences seems to give prejudice to others

As a born Muslim, I learn Islam more at the mature age, though I learn to recite Quran in kindergarten but seems that I don't know many thing about Islam
When I was in high school, I always heard that wearing hijab is choice, it is not compulsory as state in QS Al ahzab : 59

But somehow as I grow and read the translation, I realize that I was lacking the knowledge

After studying in Islamic University, I felt comfortable surrounded by Muslims from every region.
Always reminded me to pray on time. I always hear the adzan and Quran recitation
I gain a lot of knowledge..

When I finish my master degree and return to Indonesia, I am facing different environment..It is still a comfort zone but with different kind of belief

I am maintaining my attire just the way like when I was study in Islamic university. Rarely wear pants, often wear skirt and head scarf that cover my bossom. Loose dress...

Somehow...there are certain people who saw me differently...Me not being trendy and I'm being conventional...

At that moment I realize that I prefer to stay in a homogenous community...
I think this kind of situation is also experienced by some people...

When they got bad prejudice, they prefer to mingle with the same vision for their own comfort...


Being Exist

Wednesday, January 13th 2017

My first post in 2017

I can't recall whether I post about this topic before...

I just seeing someone else Facebook timeline
Some people like to post quote, opinion that might influent others namely bad comments about the current condition, how the government ruled and religious motivation
I know it's their right to write what ever their want because they are the one who will be responsible about their act in the dunia and the hereafter...

Often I see people's post in the social media as being snob by showing what kind of car they have, how many shoes they have and with whom they being in the same frame...

I know sometimes I did that too as a purpose to inform friends and family whom I met rather than being show off...
I think maybe it is all depend on your niyat...


Doing Good Deeds

Monday, November 7 , 2016

There are many ways to do sadaqoh beside giving food to the needy
I just want to share things that will inspire you to do sadaqoh...
1. Treat your friend for lunch
2. Put free candy in the masjid. You can also doing it in Friday for Jummah praying
3. Offer a hijab in WhatsApp group. In case one your friend decide to wear hijab or head cover. You can purchase siffon fabric and wear for hijab
4. Give chocolate bar or candy to your students if you are a lecturer or a teacher. They will be happier and enjoy your class :)
5. Give candy or snack for friends whose going back to their country
6. Give snack or chocolate bar for your friend's daughter or son
7. Bring something such as snack, date or sweets if you are invited to a dinner or lunch at your friends' place

It's a great feeling to share things
There are many surah in the Quran that mentioned about infaq, sadaqoh and Zakat. Why not implement them and show that this is true teaching of Islam..




New Resolution achieved

Friday, 4November 2016

It feels so good when you can convey your knowledge again..
After I move to Malaysia and left my part time job as lecturer, finally I can teach again...though it is a tutor but for a university student and a finance subject
When you teach you learn twice...:)

I can enhance my English, I gain more knowledge about managerial finance and I got acquainted with new people...Alhamdulilah

One more resolution achieved...




Their Own History

Saturday, 22 October 2016

Every part has its own history..no wonder some people like to learn about history so they can know why this place was build and why certain ethnicity mostly live in that area...

I just read an article that Yogyakarta has better education than the capital city Jakarta...
If we refer to the history, Kyai Hajji Ahmad Dahlan established a school and it's organization in Yogyakarta.
Muhamadiyah who was established by Ahmad Dahlan has a mission to enhance education in Indonesia...
No wonder there are many Muhamadiyah University in Yogyakarta...
Beside university, it also build a primary school
As time goes by, many of members inspired by his work and established another university in other province ...

Education is basic  need to human life...part of leaning...it mentioned in the Quran..
An educated mother will provide a good needs for her children in term of quality of school and process of learning...:)

My New Hub

Thursday, 15 September 2016

Here is a closer look at the place I stay since the beginning of september...
Mahalah Safiyyah Block PG third floor....






6 years ago part 2

Sunday, August 7th 2016

these past months facebook has a reminder tool about memories we had on that day a few years ago

and I wrote this in my timeline 6 years ago...


6 years ago

Saturday, August 6th 2016

Tomorrow will be the sixth year for my father leaving us...
He passed away on August 7th 2010 around 40 days after I enrol as a student in Malaysia and 1 week after my brother's wedding...

Loosing a member of your family is never been easy...although people see how strong you are from the outside but they can't see how fragile you are from the inside...

I pray that my mother and my siblings to have a long live , good health, happiness , good tauhid and surrounded by nice and pious people...Ameen....

Say No to Fried Food

Saturday, July 23rd 2016

Lazy day during the weekend..

on this 2 months July and August I teach principle of economic for short semester
It's gonna a be hectic month, Alhamdulilah....

14 weeks of lecture conducted in 2 months for 2 class, there are 6 session in a week...insya Allah I can handle it...

After Ramadan end I did a check up to a pyschian. I have a problem with lung, when I did my x-ray there was spots but the nurse said it's not dangerous and not TBC and it's just a bronchitis...
I just need to consume more protein

But somehow when the weather is cold, during the rain, tired or stay long in a room with cold Air Con, I always got a problem with shore throat, clunged nose...anything related to nose, ear and throat (NET)...

the doctor said I have alergy and I need to avoid fried food, consume more fruits and vegetables...

She said mostly person with blood type A, AB and B has allergic...Blood type O is stronger I suppose...my late father is blood type O

It was easy at the beginning to avoid fried food but when you see KFC, French fries, burger King, somehow it is so hard....
But after all it is for my own benefit...:)


Why Worry

Wednesday, 13 July 2016

Some how this thing is hard to implement

Maybe you should have a high faith in Allah

I'm just a normal person, a human being...
I got worried a lot especially about things that hasn't happened to me...

Pray a lot...


The Reception

Saturday, July 9th , 2016

Wedding Reception is a prominent event for a bride. Most urban people dream of having a grand wedding and unforgettable moment...

I may say the perception of grand is different among people, it depends all in the budget...

Somehow in Jakarta and other big city in Indonesia, wedding reception is becoming a good business for event organizer..
We have wedding organizer who can change the hall into a beautifully decorated room...

It can cost you a lot but people will spend extravagant and even in debted just to fund a wedding reception...
It is a one day celebration but the preparation can took months...

When I wad helping my sister's wedding, so many thing to prepare...
The wedding proposal was on August and the wedding was next March...
I see how we have to find an available Hall to book, buy material for dresses, book the cathering prior to that we have to do a survey to see which organizer suited our budget...
Probably most people will go through that kind of experience if you inviting many guests and relatives...

For me...I just want a simple wedding, reception is not necessary...


Doing it

Sunday, June 27th, 2016

it's the 21st day of Ramadan..everyone is so excited about Aidul Fitri and doing i'tikaf...

Me...
I don't know...
I feel too tired of waiting the uncertain thing...
I want to start my study this September and the enrollment day is in August and I'm still blurr about the funding...


My 1st I'tikaf

Thursday, 23 June 2016

Memories are nice to be remembered

It's the 18th day of Ramadan...commencing i'tikaf for the night of 20th in June 25...

I had my first i'tikaf in IIUM when I was a celpad student (it was an English class in IIUM)

My indo friend from aceh ask me to come, it was the first 10th of Ramadan if not mistaken...
I was so bored at that time...I just said yes if she asked me to come to anykind of place....
That wasn't so many things to see in Gombak, everything located in KL and the public transportation took time to arrived...

I'tikaf is not a strange thing to me, I start hearing this thing in 2008 when I was working.
My colleague was eager to conduct i'tikaf. She said it is useful for seeking guidance from Allah by being alone in a masjid...

It become very familiar to me when I was in UIA and it is conducted at the last 10 days of Ramadan...

It was quite hard at the first. I have to wake up at 4 am for qiyamulail and do tahajud for around 8 rakaat with long surah...when it come to sujud, I can get a headache and cold due to cold air and I felt the water in my head come running down to my nose....@_@

Tired and had a great experience....but if you can't stand the cold air at night, your body will get in pain...

The Bad Situation

Tuesday, June 21st, 2016

As a human, we have going through the bad experience, inconvenience situation and the uncomfortable zone...

I've been that bad situation before...
when I was working in a market research agency, i felt that I had enough with my workload.At that time and I wanted to quit my job but I can't because I need active income...

This severe condition is probably experienced by guys who are the breadwinner in the family...

Office work is dull routine especially if it's not your passion and you have annoying colleague and demanding boss....

I had enough with office work at this time...

I can specify the kind of office work, where you have to work inside a high building, facing a desktop for hours, cubicle atmosphere and dull interior....

It is everyone choice whether you want to be an employee or an entrepreneurs...
Every task has its on difficulty and obstacle...

Currently I like being an entrepreneurs and a part time lecture...

the good side is I can spend more time with my mother and niece, I can pray on time, I don't have to face bad traffic everyday, and I don't have to interact with demanding client or boss...

Life feels so meaningful...

The bad side, I don't have active income as others who work as an employee and I have to innovate new thing to keep my business fresh...but it makes me more creative...

If it is your passion, somehow the bad side is not really bothering you at all...:)


13th day of Ramadan

Saturday, June 18th 2016

Ramadan will end in another 17 days...it is just a glimpse of an eye...
What other religious thing you should do to get more award in this holy month??

Pray and pray...
While Ramadah, insya Allah, if it is the best for you Allah will fulfill you du'a

In the urban city, traffic jam is the usually sight especially commencing iftar or breakfasting...
Most people like to breakfast in the mall or restaurant, probably just to get a different atmosphere...

I just can't stand the bad traffic during Ramadan, when iftar come, the road is loaded with cars and motorcycles...

Somehow people try to enjoy the condition because there is nothing they can do but to break fast inside the car....-_-

I experience this situation in 2004 when I had my first job, the office is located in South Jakarta and I had to take the bus...

I took around 2 hours to get there...and the worse thing during Ramadan, I had to take 3 hour on my way home...@_@...
not a very convience experience....

I prefer to break fasting inside the house or in the masjid...you can perform your shalat in a convenience place ....