Say No to Fried Food

Saturday, July 23rd 2016

Lazy day during the weekend..

on this 2 months July and August I teach principle of economic for short semester
It's gonna a be hectic month, Alhamdulilah....

14 weeks of lecture conducted in 2 months for 2 class, there are 6 session in a week...insya Allah I can handle it...

After Ramadan end I did a check up to a pyschian. I have a problem with lung, when I did my x-ray there was spots but the nurse said it's not dangerous and not TBC and it's just a bronchitis...
I just need to consume more protein

But somehow when the weather is cold, during the rain, tired or stay long in a room with cold Air Con, I always got a problem with shore throat, clunged nose...anything related to nose, ear and throat (NET)...

the doctor said I have alergy and I need to avoid fried food, consume more fruits and vegetables...

She said mostly person with blood type A, AB and B has allergic...Blood type O is stronger I suppose...my late father is blood type O

It was easy at the beginning to avoid fried food but when you see KFC, French fries, burger King, somehow it is so hard....
But after all it is for my own benefit...:)


Why Worry

Wednesday, 13 July 2016

Some how this thing is hard to implement

Maybe you should have a high faith in Allah

I'm just a normal person, a human being...
I got worried a lot especially about things that hasn't happened to me...

Pray a lot...


The Reception

Saturday, July 9th , 2016

Wedding Reception is a prominent event for a bride. Most urban people dream of having a grand wedding and unforgettable moment...

I may say the perception of grand is different among people, it depends all in the budget...

Somehow in Jakarta and other big city in Indonesia, wedding reception is becoming a good business for event organizer..
We have wedding organizer who can change the hall into a beautifully decorated room...

It can cost you a lot but people will spend extravagant and even in debted just to fund a wedding reception...
It is a one day celebration but the preparation can took months...

When I wad helping my sister's wedding, so many thing to prepare...
The wedding proposal was on August and the wedding was next March...
I see how we have to find an available Hall to book, buy material for dresses, book the cathering prior to that we have to do a survey to see which organizer suited our budget...
Probably most people will go through that kind of experience if you inviting many guests and relatives...

For me...I just want a simple wedding, reception is not necessary...


Doing it

Sunday, June 27th, 2016

it's the 21st day of Ramadan..everyone is so excited about Aidul Fitri and doing i'tikaf...

Me...
I don't know...
I feel too tired of waiting the uncertain thing...
I want to start my study this September and the enrollment day is in August and I'm still blurr about the funding...


My 1st I'tikaf

Thursday, 23 June 2016

Memories are nice to be remembered

It's the 18th day of Ramadan...commencing i'tikaf for the night of 20th in June 25...

I had my first i'tikaf in IIUM when I was a celpad student (it was an English class in IIUM)

My indo friend from aceh ask me to come, it was the first 10th of Ramadan if not mistaken...
I was so bored at that time...I just said yes if she asked me to come to anykind of place....
That wasn't so many things to see in Gombak, everything located in KL and the public transportation took time to arrived...

I'tikaf is not a strange thing to me, I start hearing this thing in 2008 when I was working.
My colleague was eager to conduct i'tikaf. She said it is useful for seeking guidance from Allah by being alone in a masjid...

It become very familiar to me when I was in UIA and it is conducted at the last 10 days of Ramadan...

It was quite hard at the first. I have to wake up at 4 am for qiyamulail and do tahajud for around 8 rakaat with long surah...when it come to sujud, I can get a headache and cold due to cold air and I felt the water in my head come running down to my nose....@_@

Tired and had a great experience....but if you can't stand the cold air at night, your body will get in pain...

The Bad Situation

Tuesday, June 21st, 2016

As a human, we have going through the bad experience, inconvenience situation and the uncomfortable zone...

I've been that bad situation before...
when I was working and felt that I had enough with my job and I wanted to quit my job but I can't cause I need active income...

This severe condition probably also experienced by guys who are the breadwinner in the family...

Office working is dull especially if it's not your passion and you have annoying colleague and demanding boss....

I had enough with office work at this time...

I can specify the kind of work where you have to work inside a tall building, facing a desktop for hours, cubicle atmosphere and dull interior....

It is everyone choice whether you want to be an employee or an entrepreneurs...
Every task has its on difficulty and obstacle...

Currently I like being an entrepreneurs and a part time lecture...

the good side is I can spend more time with my mother and niece, I can pray on time, I don't have to face bad traffic everyday, and I don't have to interact with demanding client or boss...

Life feels so meaningful...

The bad side, I don't have active income as other who work as an employee and I have to innovate new thing to keep my business fresh...but it makes me more creative...

If it is your passion, somehow the bad side is not really bothering you at all...:)


13th day of Ramadan

Saturday, June 18th 2016

Ramadan will end in another 17 days...it is just a glimpse of an eye...
What other religious thing you should do to get more award in this holy month??

Pray and pray...
While Ramadah, insya Allah, if it is the best for you Allah will fulfill you du'a

In the urban city, traffic jam is the usually sight especially commencing iftar or breakfasting...
Most people like to breakfast in the mall or restaurant, probably just to get a different atmosphere...

I just can't stand the bad traffic during Ramadan, when iftar come, the road is loaded with cars and motorcycles...

Somehow people try to enjoy the condition because there is nothing they can do but to break fast inside the car....-_-

I experience this situation in 2004 when I had my first job, the office is located in South Jakarta and I had to take the bus...

I took around 2 hours to get there...and the worse thing during Ramadan, I had to take 3 hour on my way home...@_@...
not a very convience experience....

I prefer to break fasting inside the house or in the masjid...you can perform your shalat in a convenience place ....



Recalling

Monday, 13June 2016

Seeing my older posts...
many thing I have going through...

Many grammatical error, typo and weird post....
makes me realize people can write many things from their life experiences




4th day of Ramadan

Thursday, June 9th, 2016

I never attend Islamic school before and I wear hijab on a mature age...
IIUM was my first Islamic school.

I miss UIA especially during Ramadan, it's not as festive as UIA in here...

When I plan to continue my master in Malaysia 6 years ago, UIA was on my list because the tuition fee was the cheapest that time compare to other Malaysian University and the medium of instruction is in English and Arabic while other public university in Malaysia is conducted in Bahasa Melayu

I didn't know that many Indonesian enrol UIA because it is the pioneer for Islamic Economic and many great scholar graduated from UIA...
It was all Allah plan and I'm very grateful...

my choice for master program at that time was either psychology or finance but somehow I was attached to Economic...
it was choosen by feeling without considering about Islamic Economic...

Time flies...
When I registered, I don't have IELTS result thus I have to take an English test and failed...

I have to sit for an English class for 1 semester..
That time I didn't know so many Indonesian students and try to avoid mingle to often with the Indonesian, hence most of my close friends are from Thailand and Malaysia..
Eventually my English become fluent than before...

There was up and down during my study in UIA...
I got dismissed, I have financial problem, I got bored, I was lack of information because I stay in a hostel where there were not so many Indonesian and it took around 30 minutes to walk to Economic Department...

there were sadness and also happiness...

I learn new thing about the history of Islam, I can recite the Quran according to tajwid n tahsin, my first i'tikaf was in UIA and it was very excited to see many people gatheround in one place during Ramadan and lastly there were many Islamic program

In the end, we realized that Allah will give what best for us...:)

An Academician or A Practioner

Sunday, June 5th, 2016

An academician or a practioner...both have different job desk and working environment...

Being an academician, you only convey knowledge, previous theories, analysis and what you have understand so far about the topic you teach without worrying whether you will get a negative feedback or gaining profit....
Everything you said it is bubbling in your head...

however being an practioner, it is a tough assignment...
Many people will judge you if you are making the right move, makes a mistake or what achievement you have gain so far that be useful for the company portfolio...

I can give example of Islamic finance.
This infant industry is growing very slow in Indonesia...
academician will always compare it with other countries such Malaysia and middle East countries....
why we cannot achieve higher market share more than 5%....
There are many issues...

but the practioner will have many opinion why this industry is very slow....
when I attend IDB 41st meeting last may in Jakarta, heaf of chamber and commerce stated that the cost of this Islamic finance industry is higher that conventional...
Business people doesn't really bother what is the name as long it is cheaper or less cost to spend we will apply it...
Further...Indonesia is not really good at selling, as we can see we are abundance will natural beauties for tourism, but we don't gain a lot compare to Malaysia who is more successful in promoting its tourism



it's their choice

Sunday, 5 June 2016

it's 5 minutes to 1am...

Ramadan is a holy month for Muslim and it's an obligatory for every Muslim to perform fasting...
But somehow not all muslim perform their religion...

We often heard a person who claim that she or he is a Muslim but doesn't perform her or his religion..
I know it's their choice...
They are the one who responsible to answer all the questions in the here after...

For some people, if you are a born Muslim, perform your daily prayer 5 times a day is very difficult particularly if it is a called for prayer for fajr...

When I was working in market research agency, there are few colleagues in the office though they are Muslim but they drink alcohol, skip their shalat and eat pork....
Maybe these issues also accured in other company...
I know it's their choice to do what ever they like, but seeing them doing that somehow it was really bothering me....




Commencing Ramadan 1437H

Saturday, June 3rd, 2016

Relaxing my mind after the last class on Thursday and Ramadan is in another 2 days...
I still need to do marking for the students' paper assignment and writing draft for the final exam...
other than that I still need to do restocking for my frozen food products....
Everything will done soon...:)

If we speak about Ramadan, in Indonesia people are more consumtive compare to other 11 months....
They like to spend more for groceries and serve it for breakfasting
Also being a charitable person is growing among the Muslim during Ramadan because the rewards are double and triple..

No wonder producers will increase the price for every daily goods because in Ramadan eventually people will purchase it no matter how much the price is and it's once in a year opportunity to gain more profit for producers...

Become a high spender is everybody choice but become a high donator, can people still doing it after Ramadan ends...

Can we still donate without expecting the rewards from Allah SWT....

Nothing is Impossible

Monday, May 30, 2016

Relaxing my brain after writing paper cause tomorrow is the last submission...

6 days to Ramadan...

Nothing is impossible if we believe that Allah will always full fill our dua
I have experience these thing many times

When I got dismissed in 2012 during my Master in Malaysia because I failed twice for my pre requisites subject - Econometric. I pray to Allah that I can be active student again...
With the tension, sorrow and wonder I have going through Alhamdulilah I was asked to write an appealed letter and I become an active student again...:)

Secondly, when I got rejected twice for my PhD admission in IIUM, I do shalawat and begging Allah so I can be accepted for PhD...
Although I was turn down and the department was saying I have no chance to be accepted but Alhamdulilah after the third application I got accepted...
That happens because last year I met Dr.Gairu during training and he recommend me to apply again. He said that there is a new coordinator and she is not too strict...

Currently I have defer my Phd application for the second time and in process of my visa but I have not got any sponsor...
I've got the feeling I can start my study this September...
Insya Allah...

Being hopeless sometimes happened when you felt so tired and everything doesn't work as you have plan...
But Allah have better plan for you...
If you try to recall every moment of your live, you will know it is better to be like this....
The path that you have going through....

Be grateful...
(:


Their Pictures

Saturday, May 28, 2016

It is 4.15 am and I have many things to do but I'm not in the mood to do it...

Social media nowadays has become  part of human...
Most of urban people have social media.

Some of them use social media to show off how many branded bags they have, what car they owned, which city they have visited, which restaurant they were dining in and how beautiful and adorable kids they have....

If I can recall what stated in Sheik Mufti Menk Twitter...
"The sadness part of social media is we compare our life with them without counting how many blessings we already have..."
More or less is like that ...:)

But try to think positive side of social media...
You can promote your products cheaper and faster with wider audience, you can reconnect with friends that you haven't met for a long time, you can told everyone your location for your own safety in case you travelling alone and you can share recommend cuisine and holiday atmospheres for your friends to try them out....

There are positive and negative side of social media....
It is all depend how you interact with it...

I miss it

Tuesday, May 24th , 2016

12 days countdown to Ramadan.
Although the government haven't announce the exact date for Indonesian Muslim to start fasting but I assume it is around 6 June....

I wish this Ramadan will be different from the previous one...

Insya Allah something new will happens to me on 26 June 2016...Ameen...

Currently I'm longing for Thailand food...
I miss eating at Johnys and at Kampung baru...
When I stay in Malay, Thailand food was the best food I ever tried so far...
No wonder most of besties are from Thailand...:)

Sower and spicy food...mmmmmhhhh


How are their condition?

Sunday, May 22nd , 2016

I just watched X-Men Apocalypse with my mother...Great movie and the flow is like the usual X-Men prequel. The character was screened while they were young
There are Prof.X, Magneto, Mystic, Beast. And also there is Wolverine featured by Hugh grant as a cameo. He was screened for around 15 minutes.
The producer still consistently cast the previous actors for continuity...

if you watched the previous x-men prequel, you know how the storyline. Mostly it is about anger, revenge, and end of the world. The movie begin with how the villain was created back then during thethe creation of pyramid in ancient Eqypt...

I don't want to spoil for those who haven't watch the movie...:)

As I mentioned before, if there is an anger and revenge, there will be somekind of city destruction which remind me of what currently happened right in Aleppo Syria...
How the villain destroy the city and all humankind...

If there a message in x-men movie?
Whether they agree with peace and stop destruction in Syria...?

It is just my assumption...

Night everyone...


Having a child

Sunday, May 15' 2016

Seeing my sister in law and my younger sister taking care of her child, I wonder when will my time will come...

Only Allah knows...

Sometimes I babysit my nephew and niece when the mother away for a while...It's a great feeling being a mother although I'm only an aunt...

You can share your knowledge to them, sing them a song, know their personality and seeing their face while they are a sleep...

A mother would think and pray that her child to have a good future and become successfully...
A mother wouldn't accept if her child being hurt by someone...
A mother would feel what her child feel...

Unconscious or consciously I hurt my Mother's feeling when I was growing up, when I was in teen age, and during my young adult....

it is not easy being a mother...

Everyday is a learning process, you can't blame who is right and who is wrong...

It's important

Sunday, May 15'2016

I just had a family gathering from my late father side. My aunt who stay in Netherlands is coming for holiday
We also chat with other relatives

I must say family is an important thing in your life. It is where your root...

When you have a relative and big family, you can share knowledge and experience...

When my father passed away, all my relative, aunts, uncles and cousins were helping and give spirit to us...

Although one by one will be getting old and leaving us, loosing a family is so hard...

A Teacher or A Lecturer

Tuesday, May 10' 2016

Although being a lecturer has the same meaning as being a teacher but both task has different obligation

I have experienced both job. I was an English teacher for elementary school for around 3 months. It was part of fieldwork I have to do when I was in University.
I was a kindergarten teacher for free pre-school. it was a voluntary job

Both task was not a formal job and I was not purposely apply it and become passionate about it

Being a teacher, you are not only convey material as stated in the curriculum but you are facing a bunch of student who depend on you emotionally. Maybe you can say spoiled...
The students are in their process of developing. You also need to communicate with their parents on how their intelligence, attitude and moral...Many things should be done

While being a lecturer, you just need to convey your knowledge according to the silabus...beside conveying knowledge you also perceiveing knowledge from the students....
It's a great thing for being a lecturer...^^

My mother was a teacher for more than 20 years before she retired last year...I show how she reacted emotionally to many things....
Teacher is not an easy task but somehow you are not well paid for being a teacher in some province...@_@


Being Rejected

Tuesday, 3 May 2016

Everyone have the experience of being turn down...It is not the end of everything..
If we read the story of a great people they have been rejected million times or maybe they lost count on how many times of being rejected...

The key is being preserverence or keep trying and never give up...
But I know it is not easy to keep that spirit high...
Sometime there was a moment you said this words to yourself "i think it's enough" or "just forget about it, maybe it's not meant for me..."

We never know what's going to happend next...